Shaque

He’s a legend and was way before I was born. His music makes you sit and think about stuff. You have to wonder what a conversation with him would’ve been like because of the way his mind worked. he has an amazing voice takes you on a journey through his words. I wish I had a chance to meet him and sing with him. Not in a concert but sitting in a back yard somewhere. My number one idol of all time. I couldn’t meet him in the life but definitely looking foward to meeting him in the afterlife.

They say everyone has a guardian angel. That’s about all I know about it. For some weird reason though I believe I have one. She’s with me all the time and she nudges me every now and then. I know its probably against some rule or something but I want to meet her someday. I want her to answer me sometimes. give me some kind of wisdom even if tis in a way I have to figure out for myself. then again maybe she does give me wisdom and I’m just to stubborn to recognize it. She must be really patient because I’m a nut case at best. If i was my guardian angel I would’ve quit a long time ago. I just want to know who she is, what she looks like.

some people might think this is crazy because I h ave no kids. Twice i have dreamt of a little girl who is mine. Strange but in my heart I just know if I were to have kids that I will have a daughter. I had no preference but after those dreams I know. When she’s born and I see her face it will be so timeless. I don’t really know what she will look like but if it is that little girl that I have dreamt of then it just means that she was meant to be here. I already love her uncoditionally whether she is a dream or not. And if I end up having a little boy I will love him just the same but that little girl with my ees will always be the daughter of my dreams and I will always want to meet her.

i know who my dad is. I just haven’t seen him in a long time. I am close to my family. His sisters, his parents and my cousins. I had kinda just started getting comfortable spending weekends and stuff with him and then he got married and moved to Switzerland with his wife. I remember he visited once and then never did again. My aunt says he asks about me when she tals to him but I don’t really know because he could ask her for my number or tell her to give it to me. I’m 24 and managed to survive life without him in it. I had someone who was like a father to me and who i consider my father but he’s still the man that made me. I want to get to know that man. I don’t resent him or anything because I did well. I had a mom and a dad that took care fo me. When everyone tells you you look like this person or smile like this person and pratically every facial expression or mood or action is just like this person wouldn’t you want to know for yourself.I just want to know the man I am so much like without ever knowing him. In a way being so much like him should kinda give me an idea of what he’s like but getting to know him and possibly be able to invite him to a wedding if i do get married or to know his grandkids if i do have kids isn’t that much to ask for. Wanting to have a relationship with a man that helped put you on earth isn’t too much to ask for.